broken

He can't walk she quietly complained

can you check his legs I think he's in pain

maybe his toe, it's fused and it's hurting

maybe he's slow because he's not eating

His arm it's not moving I thought I heard her saying

please doctor check it make sure it's not aching

what if something happened

what if someone hurt him

He lay in her arms listless and not moving

his tiny body limp helpless unassuming

his father now long gone, his only hope

his mother I pondered with a frown

And then much too soon the pieces all fit in

I knew I had the answers the ones I wished I didn't

I eyed her with contempt all innocence forgotten

I spit the words out harshly his every bone is broken

© labujamra

confusion

I've been waiting for God knows what

looking for who knows who

going only God knows where

I've been searching for who knows what

aiming for God knows where

asking only who knows why

I've been wondering about God knows what

praying for who knows who

pondering only God knows why

I've been listening for who knows what

straining for God knows where

hoping only who knows why

I'm thankful because God knows what

leaning because He knows where

smiling only I know why

© labujamra

top 10 reasons i had a good ER shift

10. i get to leave 5 minutes early

9. not a single parent questions my judgment or disagrees with my plan of care

8. the test i do is actually positive for a change

7. every spanish speaking family actually has its own family interpreter with them

6. i don't fight with any consultants

5. i don't fight with any primary care physicians

4. not a single parent warns me that their real job is in the law

3. no one dies

2. i'm not the patient. i'm just the person seeing the patient

1. i actually look forward to going back for another round today

still alive!

I just can't believe it's been over a year since i last blogged.
But I'm back!!!

You may be wondering where I've been....where should I start?
I've been busy....I've spent some time arguing with Louise at the local Jewel Osco, and I've had my share of car trouble....oh, and I was in and out of a serious relationship....

But, well, you know...nothing too unusual....

The important thing is that I'm back so be on the outlook for new entries now!

And I have missed you all....well, at least the handful of people who kindly lied to me and told me they read my entries!

Talk to you again soon!

the african way

i want to live

the african way

though clouds obscure

and rain is sure

unshaken

i want to wait

the african way

though questions loom

and come what may

unfrazzled

i want to pray 

the african way

though answers tarry

and words be few

undoubting

i want to dance 

the african way

though others watch

and music's off

uncensored

i want to hope 

the african way

though plans unravel

disaster threatens

undaunted

i want to die 

the african way

though years be short

with troubles fraught

unfearful

© labujamra

pain

soul blemishes marring faces
eyes cast down avoiding gazes

fading scars reminding

of imperfections lurking

hidden handicaps in children

threaten revealing more

that's not quite whole

and others stare unashamed

hideous defects uninvited

surrounding me unsummoned

head pounding whispers rise

yelling out you're incomplete

blessed fate now convinces

no pain endured is wasted

the little boy peeks eyes smiling

and i see his arm - missing

© labujamra

i'm heading out of town for 2 weeks. i'm sure i'll have plenty to say when i come back...

don't miss me while i'm gone, and stay grounded - in the word, in good relationships, in acts of kindness...