Wednesday, June 17, 2009

outside

i'm on the outside looking in
where folks are gathered
to laugh and sing
and share old tales
of climbing gales
and sinking valleys
and still the glass
though clear to see
separates

I'm on the outside looking in
i knock i wait
gesticulate
hoping if i laugh and sing
some poor old soul
will let me in
where i can join
the gathered throng
participate

I'm on the outside looking in
it's bleak out here
the clouds are thick
the raindrops stick
i crane to see
faces blurred
no longer clear
the glass has lost
transparency

I'm on the outside looking in
if only i could find a way
to enter in some narrow way
perhaps someday
the glass will break
and step by step
i'll make it there
but for today
i watch i wait

© labujamra

Monday, June 8, 2009

thankful

this little light of mine
i was gonna let it shine
but mired by a bog of clay
i found it hard to pray
let alone to say
where all of my strength lay

and with all flavor gone
i might as well be thrown
wasted bland ashamed
i was driven to despair
and heard the piercing cries
a life of hypocrisy

but then my savior's voice
whispered oer the noise
tis not your life that counts
but mine that paid the cost
my blood once spilled not lost
so precious is that cross

© labujamra

Friday, June 5, 2009

impact

I thought I could change the world
with the power of my words
I thought I could make you smile
if I walked with you a mile

I thought I could help you see
how rich your life could be
I thought my good intentions were enough
to help you overcome your stuff

I thought I thought
O vain the thought
I talked and talked
and still you balked

But I'm a little older now
and I can see more clearly how
it's time to let you go
to let God take control

It's taken me a while to learn
it's not my hand that's at the stearn
it's not my words my time my way
but all about God's endless grace

© labujamra

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

tribute to single women

i know God has a man for me somewhere
o where o where is his pretty mane
i wonder have you seen his handsome face
roaming among millions all over the place

does he have a page on my space
does he carry himself with much grace
do you know if he has a job that pays
does he have a past to erase

if you see him resting near the fray
won't you kindly point him my way
tell him i've been waiting
while the chimes are sounding

tell him i like flowers
and houses with big gardens
and don't forget my ardor
for men with a little candor

© labujamra

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

reality check

Have you ever been living your life, minding your own business, trying to make the best of things, when you suddenly hit a wall? 

I'm not sure when I started veering off the main road, i'm not sure when i took that wrong turn, but somehow, someway, i did. And it's been ugly.
The funny thing about it is that a lot of people may not have noticed a huge change. After all, these kinds of things happen slowly, subtly, and it only becomes obvious that something is wrong when you're suddenly 100 miles down the road and too lost to turn around. 

I suppose some people could explain away the subtleties. Oh, she just broke off her engagement. Give her some time to adjust, to rearrange her life dreams and vision. Or maybe it's the economy. Times are tight. Everyone is stressed out. It could even be a family thing, her parents are aging, you know how hard that can be. I suppose some people may even understand and excuse the changes. After all, it's busier than ever in the ER....this swine flu thing really took a hit on everyone....no one appreciates doctors anymore, the hours are long, the pay is low...and on and on the excuses go.

But today i've decided no more excuses. No more pretexts. No more blaming my boss, or the current administration, or the check out lady at the grocery store.

I'm making some changes starting today. I'm making some resolutions starting now. I'm sure this list will grow, but a girl's gotta start somewhere....so, here goes:

Resolved to put God back on the throne.
Resolved to be quick to repent over my wrong attitudes, wrong motives, wrong choices and wrong words (because i know i'll fail and often!)
Resolved to go back to the basics.
Resolved to love those who are hard to love.
Resolved to listen more and speak less.
Resolved to give up my rights for the good of others.
Resolved to refuse the lies of the devil. 
Resolved to wait.
Resolved to enjoy today because i don't know what tomorrow brings.
Resolved to trust God's timing and plan.
Resolved to proclaim Christ in everything i do, and when actions fail me, to speak His name loudly and resolutely.
Resolved to respect everyone. no exceptions.
Resolved to recognize and submit to the authorities in my life even when i don't agree with their decisions.
Resolved to live my life for God's pleasure and renown.
Resolved to love Christ and the cross.

He is my life, my hope, my all. It's time  i start living that way again.

So help me God.